About me

50 questions to think about

1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are? Hard to say, sometimes I'm really childish, sometimes I'm more mature...so probably around the same age.
2. Which is worse, failing or never trying? I know the "correct" answer is never trying but I'm extremely scared of failing and often don't even try.
3. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do? Because life works that way. For some things that you want to do, you have to do other things you don't like.
4. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? mhmm yes, I'm always dreaming and fantasizing about things but don't do them.
5. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world? the mentality of people towards certain topics, the divide between rich and poor
6. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich? If I only knew.
7. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing? Both. I try to do what I believe in but sometimes you just have to adapt to something.
8. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently? I would tell everyone about my feelings (for them), I would eat everything I want to and as much as I want to, I would spend my money on nice things...
9. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken? Not too much up to now. Unfortunately I'm way more passive than I'd like to be.
10. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things? I worry about everything.
11. You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire.  They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend.  The criticism is distasteful and unjustified.  What do you do? Opposing them diplomatically.
12. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be? Don't make your life, your opinion, your actions dependend from people, but do what you want to do.
13. Would you break the law to save a loved one? Depends on how illegal it would be but probs yes.
14. Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity? Not that I remember.
15. What’s something you know you do differently than most people? Everyone does everything a bit differently. I'm not satisfied with this answer though; I have to think about it.
    
16. How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy? Because things sometimes make me happy out of egoistic reasons that other people don't benefit from.
17. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do?  What’s holding you back? I really want to end this whole ~eating disorder/~depression stuff but I am afraid to get help because I'm afraid of other people knowing and of the struggle it will be.
18. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of? Read the last question. Besides that I really need to let go of my feelings for Jeremy. I'm getting there. I'm nearly there.
19. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why? The USA, maybe Florida. I love it there, I'm obsessed with everything American. I don't know why but it's just so attractive to me and I definitely plan to move there when I'm older.
20. Do you push the elevator button more than once?  Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster? Yes and yes, sometimes.
21. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton? Joyful simpleton. Genius is no use if you can't enjoy your life.
22. Why are you, you? Don't ask me.
23. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend? Generally yes. I don't like that I'm easily jealous, see competitions everywhere and grudge my friends certain things. On the other side I'm really caring and I never say no to anything you ask from me (which can be bad as well) -> I'll always help and be there.
24. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you? Losing touch with a good friend who lives right near to you because then it's your fault because you neglected the friendship. Moving away is mostly something you can't avoid in some situations.
25. What are you most grateful for? For my family and friends.
26. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones? Neither! I really love to indulde in reminiscenes.
27. Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first? You don't know it but you can assume it.
28. Has your greatest fear ever come true? I don't have a greatest fear but various smaller (and changing) fears and some of them have come true.
29. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset?  Does it really matter now? I don't. Sometimes I think I really suffer from some kind of Alzheimer's or repression of memories because I don't really remember things that are many years ago.
30. What is your happiest childhood memory?  What makes it so special? This sounds kind of sad but I don't know. There's not big happy memory but just some special moments I remember. My whole childhood was sheltered and mostly happy I think.
31. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive? Passion is an extremely strong emotion and I haven't really felt it yet. Especially in my recent past I haven't done anything noticeable at all.
32. If not now, then when? I don't know. Hopefully soon.
33. If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose? I have no idea if there even is something I'd have to lose; I just don't know what triggers passion in me.
34. Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever? Not exactly like that but I do enjoy a being quiet with a good friend.
    "True friendship comes when silence between two people is comfortable."
35. Why do religions that support love cause so many wars? Because men's wish to establish their opinion is always bigger than anything else.
36. Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil? No, because you can look at it from different angles.
37. If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job? 1. I don't have a job. 2. No, because one million doesn't last as long as you think.
38. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing? Less work but still enjoy it. Afterwards you have time for things you enjoy even more.
39. Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before? At the moment my days are all mostly the same, so yeah.
40. When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in? ...Never?
41. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today? My family and my closest friends.
42. Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous? If you had said "extremely happy" - Yes! Extremely attractive - maybe. Famous - No.
43. What is the difference between being alive and truly living? Everyone's alive but many people don't master the art of truly living (I don't sometimes). Truly living is doing what you want and enjoying it to the fullest.
44. When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right? If you can accept the risk of being wrong - anytime!
45. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake? Because we fear the consequences.
46. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you? Nearly everything?
47. When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing? I don't remember.
48. What do you love?  Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love? Again, there's not big thing I love but many small ones like meeting friends, dancing, eating sweets ec
49. In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday?  What about the day before that?  Or the day before that? No, not special enough.
50. Decisions are being made right now.  The question is:  Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you? Sadly, I'm letting others make them for me or I am at least influenced by their opinion.